September 2010
2 posts
Tumblr challenge. Because I've got nothing better...
Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02 - The meaning behind your Tumblr name
Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends
Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didnt have
Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06 - Favourite super hero and why
Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that is the biggest impact on you
Day 08 - Short term...
Rofl.
K, I know what I did was stupid. Thank you. I do understand this. And a part of me does regret it. But all of you need not be so butthurt. You’ll move on. As if you aren’t all a little attention hungry yourselves sometimes. Let’s get real. What will this mean to you a year from now? Nothing. So buck up, buttercup. What were you really expecting anyway?
So what does this come...
July 2010
4 posts
@_@
LOL WELL THAT REALLY FUCKING SUCKS. Good job, Jamee, you technological brainiac. Fuckfuckfuck.
YES. YES. YES. SHE’S BACK. SHE’S BACK. SHE’S FUCKING BACK!
I’m so happy. I don’t know why. Things won’t go anywhere, despite my hopes. They won’t go to where they used to be, not even close, even though I’d love to have her in that way again. But she’s back. And she still cares. She’s back and she still cares. She’s. Back. And....
Errr.
I wish I used this more. It makes me feel better.
And deep down, I knew you'd never left.
You left me, but I always knew you would come back someday.
With each day, though, doubt grew and grew, until it flooded my body, coursed through my veins and pumped in my chest.
I was broken until almost nothing, without you.
And you came back to me.
And then everything felt alright, and somewhere within my heart I could feel it.
You’d never really left at all.
10.31.09, until...
June 2010
1 post
You still mean everything to me.
Well it wasn’t too long ago. The bright lights and rides were nothing compared to your eyes. As I caught the sight of your gaze, I couldn’t quite turn back. I wasn’t expecting it that night. But when you walked away, I couldn’t beg for you to stay. I had to let you go. I love you more than you might know. Every single day, wishing I could say well I miss your face, your gaze, and the way you said...
May 2010
4 posts
“‘Cause I don’t know who I am, when you’re running circles in...”
– Fireworks—Yma6.
Oh man. :/
I just want the day to be over. The week. The month, the year. I really don’t know how much longer I can do this. How much longer I can hold on. Why is life constantly testing our strength? Is there ever any breaks, is anything ever easy anymore? I miss kindergarden. The world was so simple. Everything was so big, and you were so small in a giant colorful world that had so much to offer you....
.-.
Why am I still here?
April 2010
24 posts
I love all of you more than you know. Try not to forget me, okay?
When you need me, reach up into the sky. I’ll grab onto your hand and hold on tight. I won’t let go until you tell me to, I promise.
I just wanted to say goodbye.
I give up.
You know you could have just told me the truth. It would’ve hurt less than knowing you had to lie to me to spare my feelings. I know you don’t want me, so don’t pretend.
“Don’t dwell over what has happened or sit around waiting for something...”
– Katya gives me epiphanies. <3
If only.
If only I could see myself the way others seem to, everything might be a whole lot easier. And the person who pointed this out to me is beautiful herself. I hope she sees that.
I'm ugly because;
I’m too short, yet too tall at the same time. My nose is mis-shapen. My eyes are too big. My hair… well it’s not even real hair. I’m not skinny. My hips are too big. My thighs are enormous. My skin is too pale. My eyes are blue, but an ugly blue. My eyelashes are too long. My smile is hideous. My teeth are slightly crooked. I have scars on my chest from surgery, and even...
Ouch.
Not that you’d care, but I actually needed you more than ever.
Hypocrite.
Mayday, mayday; someone save me.
I’m trying to pull back, as you’re pulling away. I’m pulling as hard as I can, but just as hard as I pull, you’re pulling just so. I don’t want to rip you in half. Then there won’t be any of you left for me.
No matter what’s happening, no matter where your heart is, try to take some comfort in knowing that mine is with you.
I’m always here when you...
Don't. Just don't.
Fuck you. Leave me alone. Stop trying to make me want you. I wanted you, I loved you, I fell IN LOVE with you, and you fucking left me. You’re just like everybody else. You left me when I needed you most; I’ll never forgive myself for letting you in, for letting myself believe you were different. You don’t want me anyway, so just let me move on. I’ve got somebody else. I...
Waiting.
I hate feeling like this. Not knowing if I’m what you want, or if you’re only being nice to spare my feelings.
I really hope I’m what you want, but if I’m not, please tell me.
Just know that if you do want me, I’d wait around for you forever if it came down to it.
I love you. Don’t say it back, if you won’t mean it.
“And if I’ve said I’m sorry too many times before, it’s because...”
– Winter—Andrew Landon.
Oh man.
I forgot I had you, tumblr. I’m sorry. D: Thanks to Katya for the reminder. <3
I woke up this morning with a knot in my stomach. And no, it’s not the stomach flu, because I’m home sick with a sore throat.
Ugh.
Today, my hopes were taken higher than the clouds, and then crashed all the way down into the cement again.
I’ve lost all faith in the human race. Thanks, man. Really.
I would say, “goodnight”, but the beginning of that word would be a lie.
‘Night.
There's no place like home.
Seriously. -Clicks heels together wearing tacky sparkly red shoes.-
You all have no idea how much I missed my bed. And my dog. Except now, my dog is pissing me off. Ffs.
Did you know, that I love you?
Morning, guys. God, my dog is fucking annoying me today. And my friend’s voice sounds oddly screechy and… ugh. I guess I’m just still sick.
P.S. I love you, sweetheart. Cheer up.
“Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking...”
– Trainspotting.
LAWL.
Radio: WHOOP! Der it is! WHOOP! Der it is.
Jenna: There's WHAT? What the fuck are we even looking for?!
Jamee: I don't even know, man. He probably found his dick underneath his stomach fat or something. "Ooh, whoop! There it is. :D"
This could take a while.
Things I love about you:
The way you make me laugh. Your perverted comments at almost everything. The way I’m number one on your pyramid. The way I feed into your narcissism. The way you don’t care about the age difference. The way you treat me like I’m your equal, and not fourteen. Your long-winded blogs. Your smile. Your laugh. The way you look at me. That pretty half-smile...
-Exhales-
My dearest someone,
It gets hard thinking about you sometimes. Not really about you, but the way things used to be. After all, you were my world for quite sometime. We went through so much together. I loved you with every last piece of me.
I wonder sometimes, if you miss me. Miss having me in that way. Or am I the only one? Because you never give me an actual answer when I ask you.
Anyway, all...
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late, or in my case, too early...”
– The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
“My hands were your guns, your eyes were my muse. And, I knew you could never...”
– The End—Silverstein.
Haha.
I’ve come to realize: 1. Sex is not overrated, no matter what people might say. 2. I’m never having children. And, 3. I’ll probably be alone the rest of my life anyway. Because he’s moved on, and she’s going to find somebody better than me sooner or later.
Really?
My dog is taking up my entire bed.
Damnit Missy. :l
“That night, I slept on your side of the bed, so it was ready when you got home....”
– Always Attract—YouMeAtSix.
I think I love you.
Mmm, good morning, tumblr. You’re lucky to have caught me in a good mood.
I don’t know how long this feeling will last, but for now, she makes me feel like I can do anything I’ve ever dreamed. I don’t ever want this feeling to go away.